God-Sized Desire

Albert Einstein–who was not a follower of Christ–felt the wonder of Jesus in a way some who do (follow Christ), unfortunately, do not. After reading the Gospels, He reflected:

I am a Jew, but I am enthralled by the luminous figure of the Nazarene….No man can read the Gospels without feeling the actual presence of Jesus. His personality pulsates in every word.

I desire to experience the reading of the Gospels in that way. I’m just wondering why my experience with the “luminous” Jesus of the Gospels can some times seem less “pulsating” then Albert’s experience.

Most of us have a sense of a God-shaped hole in our hearts that can only be filled by God’s actual presence in our lives. But, shouldn’t we have a God-sized desire to fill it? Do you ever feel like you don’t desire God enough?

I just realized that I somehow think that a “desire for God” must originate out of what I create myself. I often feel like I should desire God more but don’t quite know what I’m to do about it. Then, I’m reminded:

The desire for God comes from God.

We don’t have to somehow muster up our own manufactured desire. We can rest in whatever measure of desire God has given us at the moment, and simply ask God to reveal himself; in our lives, and in the ways that open our hearts to an increased desire of His person and life-giving presence.

Also, a God-shaped hole can only be filled by God himself. So, I’m learning that I can’t cram any image of God into his spot. I must trust that he desires to fill the spot that he obviously reserved for himself, even more than I desire it filled!

“Continue seeking God with seriousness. Unless He wanted you, you would not be wanting Him”-C.S.Lewis

“ I will give them a heart to know me, that I am the LORD. They will be my people, and I will be their God, for they will return to me with all their heart.” Jeremiah 24: 7